I don't believe in God. I'm not "spiritually dead". I don't believe because there is no proof, not because I love living my sordid little lifestyle. I'm an athiest. I'm not evil. Non-Christians are at least as moral as Christians. Yes, in some ways I don't want Chritianity to be true - because that god is evil. No one deserves to be tortured in hell forever, no matter what their crime. But I want it to be true as well - eternal bliss is a kinda nice thought. The reason I don't believe in it is simply because it isn't true.
Frank (not real name)